A Time Warp Solstice

Three years and eight months......Since I last delved into writing on this blog. And it's not like nothing has been happening. The number "two" has been big for me in these intervening years. Two spiritual retreats to Bali. Two serious accidents/injuries. Two heart surgeries. Two hip replacements. Learning how to walk again. Twice. I find it facinating, really - how as I went deeper within, discovered more and pushed beyond previously held beliefs as to what I was capable of doing...I also became "quieter." More active on social media...but in many ways, more closed off, superficial in my sharing. More protective of my solitude. Scattered and self-dismissive as to whether I even had anything of value to share. And, in this past, challenging year, focusing the bulk of my energies on pure healing and recovery from my medical issues. However, over this past month, as we move through this time of multiple retrograde energies, I have had correspondences with various friends from different points in my life, that has teased me into reconsidering my silence. Sometimes, we just don't know how how words, our actions - or inactions - truly impact others. One friend - a young man I used to work with at Disney, years ago - someone whose creative explorations and personal challenges he has set out for himself had often, over the years, surprised and delighted me - asked me specificially why I had stopped writing my blog. And I never thought anyone would have cared or noticed. That he should so clearly call me out on it, set me to thinking...what other passive forms of obstacle had I unthinkingly put up for myself? The act of writing, has always been something I rebelled against...putting actual, real thoughts down in a concrete form that can be used as weapons...ridiculed...repelled. But I realize that not writing is just another way of keeping myself small, unseen. So I shall dive in again. I imagine, as I move through this latest iteration, there will be some time warps - some movement between what is present and of the moment...what is presently in front of me...with recollections of experiences and observations that occurred during the wrinkle in time between Spring 2014 and this current, tumultuous Winter Solstice. I'll need to relearn the elements of how to design and publish from this platform (or find a new blog site...stay tuned!) That is no problem as learning new things has always been my jam. Remind me to tell you about the time I rebelled against my fears and learned how to make films and became a filmmaker (all that, only since 2015!!)But I get ahead of myself...that story will come out as well, I imagine...in it's own time. The times they are a changin', friends...let's help them change, together. Walk with me for a while, and let's see what we find.